Busy...Busy...Busy

I miss the days when my kids were little and summers meant long lazy days exploring the creek, making tents in the backyard, cathcing fireflies and lots of popsicles...when school was out and there were no alarm clocks to worry about.

Now my boys are grown up and I am no longer a stay at home mom...but getting up for work everyday and working long days with little satisfaction.  I keep trying to talk my hubby into letting me be a stay at home mom again but he keeps reminding me that we no longer have kids at home.  But what about Dallas...our little pound puppy?  Doesn't he need me home with him during the day?

Sigh...I could easily enjoy being a housewife...just think how clean my house would be, and laundry would be done and I would have time to exercise....

But I know I need to work...it's put 2 kids through college without loans...and additional money into retirement so we won't have to work forever.

But work has been very stressful this past year. I work for a small non-profit that supports a network of larger non-profits.  My immediate boss and our executive director have never been on good terms...long story.  There are confidence issues which have lead up to two people in our department...of a small department of three...losing their jobs...leaving only me as of 7/31/10.  It is awkward and stressful at the moment.  They are replacing the position above me but not the bookkeepers position...should be interesting.

But in the mean time I am back to my days of not sleeping...I let things worry me too much.  I think it is because I care too much about work to be able to let problems at the office.  I need to find a better balance of work and personal life.

My goal this summer is to get to work early and leave by 4:30.  I have been getting up early and walking for 30 minutes each morning and that is helping with the stress.  I love to see the sun come up and enjoy looking at the gardens of my neighborhood - some are beautiful - some not so much.  There is plenty of wildlife - birds and bunnies.  And while it has been unseasonably hot and humid I am enjoying the peacefullness of the early morning.  This has been a good start to my day.  I finish my walk and come home to a big glass of fresh ice tea and peruse my gardens a little - pulling weeds and watering when needed.  Then I sit on the back steps and read the morning paper...then off to get ready for work.  It is a great way to start my day.

  

Comments

[Beth]

That really does sound like a great way to start your day! I hope work becomes less stressful for you soon!

[jordan retro]

So cute !