I have struggled with my weight since my 30s. Since I am now in my 50s I realize that is way too long to be overweight. UGH. In recent years I have made progress and am down about 50 lbs from my heaviest. I hate to even admit that out loud but it is the sad truth.
The past year has been a journey - one towards a healthier and more fit lifestyle. I am not where I want to be but I do feel so much better than I did a year ago. But I also know that I have a long way to go - both from a weight and fitness perspective. And in the past 6 weeks have slipped back into some old habits - mostly in how I have been eating.
As I near the midway of my 55th year I realize I need to buckle down and get serious. Last night I was jotting down some goals in my journal. Many of them hark back to this quote I posted a while ago on Facebook.
This could be the title of my life story. Sigh.... I can talk the talk but don't always walk the walk. I have a tendency to easily get off track. I so want to continue this fitness journey I started a year and a half ago. But in order to keep it up I need to also stick to better eating and better work/life balance. Some of the goals I jotted down:
- Stop eating crap! Seriously. I do well for so long then slip back to old, ugly habits of eating terrible-for-me foods and sneak eating. Why of why do I do this? I sabotage myself ALL THE TIME. Stop it.
- Stop making excuses. I am the Queen of Excuses.
- Stop blaming everything on my slow metabolism.
- Move more. While I work out with a personal trainer twice a week this is just not enough. I don't feel I have to work out at that intensity every day but I do need to move everyday. I want to add walking back into my daily routine as well as yoga several mornings a week.
- Complain less. Enough said. Get over it. Life isn't always fair. Either find a way to change it or deal with it. Mostly this is related to work but unfortunately this complicates my every day life. I need to find a solution at work or move on.
- Do this for health and fitness and not necessarily the number on the scale. But we all know that is a little bit of a lie - the number on the scale does matter.
I truly want more than anything else to be healthy and fit. I have a friend who was diagnosed with breast cancer within the past year and underwent a mastectomy. I know that what you eat and how much you move contributes to this. I want to be healthy! And I know the older I get the harder it will be to lose weight and get fit.
So I start this journey - again - and reset today.